A touch of Sweetness

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Ok...I dunno if I'm a loner or something but I don't mix a lot with people in my church...and I'm more judgemental of them because I expect so much more from Christians...erhmm, erhmmm...even though some of us Christians are even worse off than the non-christians.
We don't see ourselves as superior or anything, but we're a lot more strict with values.
NO BAD WORDS
NO SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE
NO UNDERAGE SEX
GUYS CANNOT WATCH PORN
DON'T WEAR REVEALING CLOTHES
DON'T LIE
DON'T BE A HOMO
DON'T SMOKE OR DRINK OR DO ANYTHING THAT HARMS YOUR BODY...

kkk...so these aren't the ten commandments...
here are the actual ones:

1 Do not have any other gods before me.(Don't go worshipping anyone else other than God) .

2 You shall not make for yourself an idol, whether in the form of anything that is in heaven above, or that is on the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth.
You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I the Lord your God am a jealous God, punishing children for the iniquity of parents, to the third and the fourth generation of those who reject me,
but showing steadfast love to the thousandth generation of those who love me and keep my commandments.(Make yourself an idol (can be the real idols or Korean pop stars...anything you love more than God)and pay the consequences for your unfaithfulness. Stay with me and all will alright.P.S, it's not bad to be a jealous God...it shows your protectiveness of your people and how much you love them.Dun get the wrong idea)

3 You shall not make wrongful use of the name of the Lord your God, for the Lord will not acquit anyone who misuses his name(Using his name wrongly, like putting a bad word right after you say his name...even saying the simple OMG can land you in hot soup).

4Remember the Sabbath day and keep it holy.
For six days you shall labour and do all your work. But the seventh day is a Sabbath to the Lord your God; you shall not do any work—you, your son or your daughter, your male or female slave, your livestock, or the alien resident in your towns.
For in six days the Lord made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but rested the seventh day; therefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and consecrated it.(Don't work on Sundays)

5 Honor your father and your mother, so that your days may be long in the land that the Lord your God is giving you.(Respect and love your parents.They're superior to you)

6 You shall not murder(Dun kill anyone hor).

7 You shall not commit adultery(Having affairs...tsk tsk).

8 You shall not steal(That's not borrowing...)

9 You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.(Don't frame anyone)

10 You shall not covet your neighbor’s house; you shall not covet your neighbor’s wife, or male or female slave, or ox, or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor.(Covet=I want what that person has...)

Yeah...so now you know more about my religion...
A church is supposed to be like one big happy family, but there are always false brothers and sisters in the community, trying to tear the church apart.

I belong in JUNIOR YOUTH FELLOWSHIP or JYF for short, and yeah...we're supposed to be one big happy family as well, but I dun feel like I belong there.
I've been in JYF for like 3 years already, but I still feel rather detatched from it.

It was better last time, but now I feel like an absolute loner. I don't mix with the majority of people because they have their own happy little clique, and I don't talk or like the same things as them. Everyone has at least one special friend who can back thm up in JYF but I have like...NOBODY???

I need a friend who's ALWAYS next to me, who is my best friend, not someone who runs off to other people just because I'm feeling EMO and won't talk to him/her. I need a friend who understands me and won't abandon me like several people I know...but thinking back, that person will have to be someone like GOD.

I know...I ask too much, but sometimes I can't stand it.I'm an introvet, so I dun have any appealing values and I don't make friends easily. I don't speak well, I'm not pretty, I'm short and stumpy like a dwarf and I have zero taste in fashion. I don't communicate well with boys because basically, they just find me really weird or scary, and most of the time, they're too busy hooking up cute girls with sparkling characters and bright smiles and long glossy hair...

Right...what does this have to do with serving God???I need friends to push me along. And right now, I know there're so many people who read this post and go

1)I'M YOUR FRIEND!!!
2)Dun be Emo...
3)It's your fault for being boring and stumpy...

well... to 1...
I appreciate the thought, but maybe you should be more forward in expressing those feelings of friendship(I'm not talking to everyone...I DO have some gd friends)

to 2...
If you're a female, wait till the first day of your menstration then we'll see who's more EMO

to 3...
I'm assuming you have either a diamond-bright character... or u r a highly insenstive prick.

ARRRGGGUUUHHH!!!!I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!
THIS IS THE REAL REASON I'M SO PISSED!!!
JYF took a photo without me, Clarice, Emily and Hannah, and apparently, then only realised that Clarice, Hannah and Emily went missing!
THEY DIDN'T REALISE I WAS GONE!!!!
AM I INVISIBLE???
I'M TOO FAT TO BE INVISIBLE!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

-when are you coming back? ;